As Memories Flood in, I wait to be carried away
As I lay still, I get carried away
Not by those four closest to me
But by the memories that fill up my mind.
As I lay there, unable to move, eyes closed and ears open
I can see myself running around my neighbours’ house
Laughter and happiness filling the entire atmosphere
Suddenly there’s a change of place and I reach some other place
I strain to recognise it, and suddenly I realize
That’s where I spent the rest of my childhood!
It’s a huge mansion, cut off from the neighbours
It fills with people and laughter sometimes every year
I can see myself eagerly waiting for my cousins to arrive
My joy is boundless when I see my litle cousin running into my arms
It repeats with my neices and nephews too
By then I am nowhere in the scene
There I lay in a hospital bed, and my bundle of joy beside me
Time flies so fast; he has grown up as tall as me!
So have the little babies, all of whom I have lovingly caressed!
I open my eyes and can see some eyes looking at me longingly
I can feel two hands holding on to mine dearly
He has always done that, I can still feel the warmth
I drift away again along with the sweet memories that flood my mind
A mix of emotions pass through my mind
Happiness, sadness and loneliness; but never despair
Suddenly I feel proud, for not having despaired all life
For not having cribbed for things I never could enjoy
For not cursing others for what I did not get
For never wasting time over what they would think
I feel proud, of having been able to live a somewhat content life
A life which could have been different, had I changed a few decisions
I feel happy for not having done that and to challenge myself
To push a little more to achieve whatever little I ever yearned
I look back at things I missed
I still remember why I chose to miss them
More memories try to rush in as I am overwhelmed
I smile on the flash of light thinking that’s another phase flashing in front
But I see something more, or nothing ahead?
It’s just plain light flashing ahead
Is that how the end feels? I wonder and smile
I am happy and content, to leave everything behind
There’s not much if you ask me what all
A few sad faces would sum it up all!
And a roomful of memories left behind
I will add on to them as a memory cheerful and bright
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