Fear is like a termite, eating your brain. If you do not overpower it fast, it will overpower you faster. I constantly challenge myself to try something I am quite fearful of. I know that I have to consciously fight my way out of my fears. I want to break away from whatever is restraining me. I am happy that I am actually taking small yet consistent steps to overcome my few fears. I guess trust plays an important role in combating fears!
I did manage to explore darkness while we were travelling in Hyderabad! One uncle suggested that we visit the place and we did. It made a huge difference to my son’s fear of darkness. He was 9 then and was very scared of closed spaces and darkness, especially in an unfamiliar place. I tagged along my mother and son to explore this new world and it was the most worthy experience we had in Hyderabad.
I am yet to conquer my biggest fear – Height! That’s funny, considering that I am quite tall myself. But no, it is the fear of falling from a height that constantly disturbs me, especially when I see a picture taken from a height or see someone walking treacherously at a height! I am definitely working on this one.. though taking baby steps.
And I managed to explore heights and adventures recently at an amusement park. All the rides had an element of height and many had a falling effect too! Although I was tensed, not scared, I experienced and enjoyed the rides to the fullest. The most interesting one was where the seat flipped upside down as it rotated and revolved! For one moment I was scared that I would fall, but then, I realized I would not survive it and that moment the fear run away. After that moment, I saw the world upside down rotating and revolving! I am happy I did explore it and did not shy away scared. Then there was the huge swing! This time I was more prepared. And it helped too! Even though I could feel butterflies in my stomach, I managed through the ride with a smile.
And then, I fear some people. I feel some people are more poisonous that any chemical, animal or weapons! It is not a general fear. I fear those who are potentially poisonous. I guess I need to find a way to fight this fear more than anything else. There are many such people we encounter everyday and we need to make sure that they are contained, well-before they spread it out to the world. You know that they are poisonous, but what about those unaware? I need to find a way to handle this one!!!!